Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Deeper in debt and a sucky living room set
My hubby has a friend who sold us his living room set that is something he made himself. If you ask me how it looks...just like something he made himself. I don't know but a living room set to me is suppose to be cushiony and soft and comfortable and your feet touch the ground when you sit down you know basic stuff like that. This looks like a bunk bed/ chair that was made for a very tall basketball player. I don't like it. Javier likes it. I got rid of the couch we had with a tear here and there and stain to take over something that is not even comfortable. If I could I would take it back to the guy. We haven't even paid him yet he is selling it for 180 dollars and we are broke so he is giving it to us with a payment plan in mind. For once I wanted to let Javier make a decision without saying no or being negative all the time and unfortunately I wish I has said something. I have made some really bad decisions for us in the past like the apartments we currently live in so I wanted Javier to get the furniture if he wanted it( I had never seen it so i didn't know any better) Oh well what can I do now nothing....just try to dream of new nice furniture.(Anybody need wood for their fireplace this winter let me know.)
Hubby was mad at me again. This is what happened. I went to wendys with my little sister and she is of course acting guetto which now unfortunately I can't expect her to act any other way. Any way I was heading to my dad's house and this car with loud music pulls up which I hate. I keep looking forward because I don't like that but my sister is making goo goo eyes and sticking her tongue out at the driver...I look over to see if the person is even paying attention and I notice shawn my ex boyfriend from 7th grade is in the passenger seat. I say Hey Shawn! He looks at me and then he starts to ask what I have been doing etc. He asks me who I live with I told him my husband.(During this time Shayla is trying to hook up with his friend.
After a couple of minutes the light changes and we are off in different directions and I probably won't see him for another 4 years or so. Unfortunately I had to tell javier about seeing him and he gets pissed because I spoke first. I should have just ignored the first real boyfriend I had. I mean come on we are both dif people now. Later on when we hooked up as adults he didn't treat me so great he was going through shit and I was just a way for him to get his mind off of what was happening in his life. Javier should not feel threatened by him its not like we hang out together or talk on the phone. He knows where both my mom and dad lives and if he gave half a damn about me or messing around he would have tried catching me there already.(THE GUY AIN'T INTERESTED) Any way like I said, Javier got real pissed and he said he wasn't angry yesterday but then he got pissed again. Why it bothers him I don't know. He knows if he ran into an exgirlfriend he would speak to her unless he hated her it is just normal. Then he trys to compare my sister being there with me to the double date he had with Marin less than a year ago which some bitch he met on the net and her slutty side kick...give me a break
Today Hubby had an interview I hope it goes well for him. He has been trying to find something new for a while. Unfortunately I am still looking for a job. Anyway that is all for now.
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My hubby has a friend who sold us his living room set that is something he made himself. If you ask me how it looks...just like something he made himself. I don't know but a living room set to me is suppose to be cushiony and soft and comfortable and your feet touch the ground when you sit down you know basic stuff like that. This looks like a bunk bed/ chair that was made for a very tall basketball player. I don't like it. Javier likes it. I got rid of the couch we had with a tear here and there and stain to take over something that is not even comfortable. If I could I would take it back to the guy. We haven't even paid him yet he is selling it for 180 dollars and we are broke so he is giving it to us with a payment plan in mind. For once I wanted to let Javier make a decision without saying no or being negative all the time and unfortunately I wish I has said something. I have made some really bad decisions for us in the past like the apartments we currently live in so I wanted Javier to get the furniture if he wanted it( I had never seen it so i didn't know any better) Oh well what can I do now nothing....just try to dream of new nice furniture.(Anybody need wood for their fireplace this winter let me know.)
Hubby was mad at me again. This is what happened. I went to wendys with my little sister and she is of course acting guetto which now unfortunately I can't expect her to act any other way. Any way I was heading to my dad's house and this car with loud music pulls up which I hate. I keep looking forward because I don't like that but my sister is making goo goo eyes and sticking her tongue out at the driver...I look over to see if the person is even paying attention and I notice shawn my ex boyfriend from 7th grade is in the passenger seat. I say Hey Shawn! He looks at me and then he starts to ask what I have been doing etc. He asks me who I live with I told him my husband.(During this time Shayla is trying to hook up with his friend.
After a couple of minutes the light changes and we are off in different directions and I probably won't see him for another 4 years or so. Unfortunately I had to tell javier about seeing him and he gets pissed because I spoke first. I should have just ignored the first real boyfriend I had. I mean come on we are both dif people now. Later on when we hooked up as adults he didn't treat me so great he was going through shit and I was just a way for him to get his mind off of what was happening in his life. Javier should not feel threatened by him its not like we hang out together or talk on the phone. He knows where both my mom and dad lives and if he gave half a damn about me or messing around he would have tried catching me there already.(THE GUY AIN'T INTERESTED) Any way like I said, Javier got real pissed and he said he wasn't angry yesterday but then he got pissed again. Why it bothers him I don't know. He knows if he ran into an exgirlfriend he would speak to her unless he hated her it is just normal. Then he trys to compare my sister being there with me to the double date he had with Marin less than a year ago which some bitch he met on the net and her slutty side kick...give me a break
Today Hubby had an interview I hope it goes well for him. He has been trying to find something new for a while. Unfortunately I am still looking for a job. Anyway that is all for now.
Saturday, May 08, 2004
It is friday nite again and I am home with larissa. Hubby was nice enough to take fabi with him so I only have to deal with one baby.Things are better between us. A couple weeks ago things were on shaky ground but I think that we are both on the right track now. We had a talk about honesty and trust. At this point though I don't believe I am going to worry too much about the things that he does not tell me because there is absolutely nothing I can do about them. Maybe in marriage there are some things that you just don't tell the other person, not because you don't love that person but because you do and it is just better that way. I met a new friend named alfredo on the chatline. He seems like an ok guy, he has been married twice and knows that I am married as well. He wants to meet but I am not sure about that yet. I would like to but I want to be cautious. It does feel good to have someone think that I am interesting enough to be included in their little"group". I have to really get over feeling like I am always walking in someone elses' shadow. Javier is not really for it although he has met someone from the computer before. Meeting the person isn't the problem but lying about it or doing inappropriate things are. That's why I want to tell him about what is going on with me even if I am not sure how he will feel about it . He knows about it and i want him to come with me to tell me what he thinks. Alfredo also teaches salsa and since javi and I both wanted to learn it is really great how that opportunity kind of fell in our laps so to speak. One good thing that has happened in the past couple of weeks is that i met javi's friend ryan and his wife jessica. FINALLY QUALITY PEOPLE TO HANG WITH!! we will be double dating with them in the future I am sure. Ryan's wife is 21 but if I can hang out with women in their 40s I can hang with someone just out of her teens...lol Anyway hubby and I are going to try to start spending more quality time together without the kids and putting the romance and friendship that we use to have back into our marriage. I am going to try to hang out with him and his friends more even though I have to work on my jealousy issues and Javi knows what I am talking about, or rather "who" Anyway that it all for now.
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Sunday, May 02, 2004
